Everything seems so pointless right now. I was a week late in getting textbooks for two of my classes. One of those classes is an accelerated course, so missing one week is like missing two weeks. It's week three as of yesterday and I am still catching up. I have done the equivalent of 6 weeks worth of work in 6 days and my mind is numb. I have filled every waking moment with either work or school work. Mid term exams are fast approaching, papers due, writing assignments, scholarly research, reading, reading, reading, reading. My head hurts, I'm so stressed out right now.
On days like these I knew when it was time for bed I'd have you by my side. I would lay my head on your warm body, your small but perky breasts like a comforting cushion for a weary mind. You would stroke my hair and whisper sweet words in my ear assuring me that you loved me and you supported me and that I was strong enough to get through all the stress and I would come out on top.
Wrapped in your arms, your smell stimulating all the best places in my mind would make me happy again. The stresses would melt away and all that would remain is us, laying in bed together, our bare bodies touching, tangled together. I miss that so much. I miss the comfort you brought me. You gave me purpose and a sense of direction. You made it all meaningful rather than meaningless.
I wish I had love again; love and support.
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